I'm not sure.

Still miss her so much. Sometimes I just want to share so many things. Just want to discuss a lot of things about future but every time I want to do it, my fear come along and I’m just can’t do anything about this. I’m always afraid of losing someone I really love. To be broken heart, to feel unloved, feel alone and meaningless is really awful and I just hoping I’ll not go through that again. I’m not sure what should I do but I just felt so uncomfortable this few days and I don’t know why. Holiday is around the corner, I’m not going for my graduation and I thing I’ve so much things to do in 18 days of holiday.

It's ben 50 days.

It’s been 50 days in my career. So much work to do and this is teacher’s job. I’ll get my first pay check and I think it will worth what I do. Sometimes I just worry for not doing the best but I know I’ve tried. 

This is exam week for our pupil and honestly my mathematics class really giving upsetting result and I hove there’s will be improvement later. This career is challenging. It’s not easy and that’s why I have to keep moving on.

Right now I miss my girlfriend so much and I hope she is doing fine there. School break will be start next week and I just want to meet her. Sometimes long distance relationship is challenging but good news is I’m not so far away from her. Always hope and pray for her study, healthy and everyday campus life.